really? I don’t have time for your bullshit right now, I’m trying to study
The Therapy Goat- Look at the goat. How is it feeling? How you see the goat is how you feel. It reflects back to you how you’re feeling. Goat Therapy.
My brain jumps around. Creating scenarios that will never happen. Words, phrases, interjections. I have conversations with people in my head, but they all go wrong, and I start to wonder if the people in my head are really mad at me, and if their thoughts are being communicated to me telepathically. Am I intruding on their thoughts, they probably don’t know I can do this. Interjections, words I don’t understand, words in different languages, words on repeat being shouted, I feel like there’s a broken reccord in my head. I have a headache. I’m exhausted but I can’t sleep.
I can’t tell what’s wrong. Am I lying? Am I stupid? Are all of these things really happening? It’s starting to really scare me.
Get the fuck out of my head!
So, it comes the time to say goodbye to 18. What a crazy, wonderful, painful, heart wrenching, beautiful, and cherished year it has been. I have learned so many things. I have said goodbye to some old friends and greeted new ones. I have begun the journey of recovery. I lost a lot, but gained so much more. I have begun to follow my heart and do what feels right. I am so grateful for those who stand by my side as I step into another year of my life.
Something to remember – Life goes on.